dust it off n try again

dear diary,

used to watch this a million times a day, wishin i could be her! i miss this baby girl.



x

anomic loner

dear diary,

disoriented = me.

disoriented
    adj 1: having lost your bearings; confused as to time or place or
           personal identity; "I frequently find myself
           disoriented when I come up out of the subway"; "the
           anesthetic left her completely disoriented" [syn: confused,
            lost]
    2: socially disoriented; "anomic loners musing over their
       fate"; "we live in an age of rootless alienated people"
       [syn: alienated, anomic]


xx

the new osixnine.com

dear diary,

for the past three weeks, i've been spending all my waking hours working on the new osixnine online store and it's finally coming together. i must have stressed myself out a lil considering the amount of ulcers, sneezing and headaches i've had to put through... and maybe even a lil obssesed... but i'm so happy it's looking good! started this from scratch and squeezing in what must usually be 3 months worth of work - we needed to get it done in time for 2009. Personally, it certainly helped take my mind off of things. Better to be busy than to worry, as i would tell myself. i'm also excited to release my new single 'CANDY' pretty soon - it's a rather kinky little tune - i like :)

by next week, say hello to the new osixnine.com! cant wait xx

zebra odd years

dear diary,

sutasi requested that i sent them some personal pictures from way back then and when, to show a lil history of my life with all things music.

i must be 5 or 6 here... w my face painted by my mom for the first time

malay drama in school! i shouldve been the goddamn goddess in this one but NOPE, they made me a prancing slave. haha. find me :)

yamaha school choir - when i discovered i could actually sing in tune.
i was well motivated by a pretty boy as well (he's not in the picture so dont bother looking), but yes, i started chasing them at a young age... no one told me it was unhealthy.

with my Philippino vocal coach - darius!
i've trained with him since like 2002 and i still dont sound anything like Aguilera.
lol, he rocks socks :)

i was already electro and cool before i knew it.

the malaysian temptations at buddha bar, byron bay... f yeah!!

and, naturally, i got a lil carried away with the photo scanning... and found what must be one of my first few camwhoring pics. i mustve been born with that camera in my hands... and what ever happened to my silky smooth lookin hair?! x

pimp my bedroom

dear diary,

i am gonna collect some ideas to redecorate my room. i yawn long and hard everytime i'm in it. i would KILL to have a betsey-inspired room... and mark my words, when i do make my first million, i WILL have an apartment like this. And a pet to go with it. Bliss!

teddies

dear diary,

i am slowly becoming numb again. it's only been almost 3 weeks since i've left a dream and it feels like forever. i dont talk about it much, and that doesnt mean nothing happened cause so much did. but somehow i am happy, calm and collected right now. and it's nice, for a change :)

x

nye blues

dear diary,

its november 23rd and i already know i'm gonna have a shit new year's eve. just saying.

x

blinded

dear diary,

i mustve been blind all this while. thank you for opening my eyes... x

fresh to the flesh

dear diary,

yesterday was a blast! here are some pictures :)

(Our special thanks ;
Photography by Ismail Khan, Hairstyling by Sas Suhail)

Event : OSIXNINE FASHION SHOW @ FRESH TO THE FLESH / DANGERDISKO PARTY
Venue: Frangipani's, Kuala Lumpur.














More pictures here. Add 'osixnine' to your facebook! xx

p/s: go to hell

dear diary,

i love manipulative people. they make my day x

me myself and i, we fly!

dear diary,

wish for the day : i want less of you, and more of me.


x

brick wall, we meet again.

dear diary,

mend me.



x

a massage would b good

dear diary,

i need to get out. and by getting out, i mean boy hunting. and by boy hunting, i mean see no touch. because i hv enough problems in my life.

x

i aint colin

dear diary,

i am dead tired. but i hv to write this before knocking myself out. albert einstein once said;

many of life's failures are people who die not realizing how close to success they were before they gave up.

in other words, get rich or die trying. i found a super super cute new fashion designer/label, I AM COLIN. which also happens to be whre i found the einstein quote. if i aint mistaken, this is he, the colin himself... xx

ascii vs binary

dear diary,

i foresee a crazy week ahead of me. already am deep in the shiznits of FTPs and PHPs and MySQLs and ASCIIs whateveryamacallit trying to set up our new online store - with a fuckin 114-page long manual and i'm only stuck at page 5. on top of which, my sis and i are hosting a party + fashion shows within a week. this is about when i wish i consumed alcohol. anyway, i had to write this...

i'd rather be anywhere but here, where i've got everyone but you.


p/s: plus, i thought a lil bit of mcavoy would be nice to end my day :)

okay, i can sleep now. xx

happiness is a hairflip away

dear diary,

ive prolly posted this eons ago, i dunno, cant remember. and i dont care if u think this is so gay/pussilicious - which is the whole reason why i (+ my mom) love chris crocker against all odds. He is girlier than i am. 'BITCH YOU CAN STEAL MY MAN, BUT YOU CANT HAVE MY HAIR EXTENSIONS'... L to the OL!




... and a little something to help shake the depression away.



miss crocker makes my day! xx

miss piggy fucks the pain away

dear diary,

this is cute... in a way that's a little wrong for a little pig. ooh miss piggy, you is hotter than peaches! haha



...ive mixed feelings about being back. i dont feel quite settled, a lil disoriented. well, very disoriented. but i've not felt like i've settled anywhere for a while, any place or with any person or any given situation. my happy moments are so temporary and seem to last shorter and shorter as i get older and older (+ wrinkly + none the wiser) . im constantly looking for something and i dont even know what that is. how do i find it when i dont know what it is?

xx

my portfolio

dear diary,


here's a little slideshow of photos i've done w some kick ass photographers for some kick ass designers. yeah! holla if ur a kick ass designer who wants me to model for you :) i'm at ze@saerze.com xx

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how rad!

dear diary,

criminal damage has just uploaded a new photo on their facebook group with me on it! crim dam rocks my socks xx

swedes are cool too

dear diary,

I've started a profile on last.fm today. Still not so sure how it works but i guess ill get the hang of it soon enough... but it was nice to find that I already had listeners listening to I AM GLAM and BOYS I LIKE already :) Anyways i found this Swedish band, Maskinen, on Youtube. I do not understand a thing they say but they do sound hella good! The video is rad too, check em out;



I wish to make cool videos like this. genie, I hope you're listening xx