in KL for two

dear diary,

im back in KL for 2 nights - it's good to be home :)hoping i get to catch up w everybody before leaving again... and watching forgetting sarah marshall now... mila kunis is so adorable!

x

singapore

dear diary,

someone got me pink lillies yday n they're lookin lovely by my bedside ;) received good news today morning, my trip to singapore for the sutasi finals are on and looks like i'll be heading there next week! wootness!

x

i can grow a penis

dear diary,

as much as i like having power and being able to use it, sometimes i wish i dont always have to be the one wearing the pants. im all for female empowerment but sometimes i just want to be plain old fashioned n let the man take charge. but now that i think about it ive never exactly let myself be swept off my feet, it's always so much work mostly coming from me - or so i feel. are men intimidated by us or has all this girl power goodness made men unromantic and plain lazy?

x

put your butts here

dear diary,

i thought this was cute! ;)

oh im so happy today i just got me freebies from criminal damage including a new hoodie, 2 dresses, one really hot pants and a pair of jeans. i fuckin love their designs n cant wait to post the photos w took fr the shoot yday. oh, and it's yet another weekend here in london. it's gotten a lil colder now as fall approaches but im lovin it whc is unusual for me as i always crave for the sun!

xx

life is not fair

dear diary,

how is it a twat like miley cyrus gets a thing like this for a boyfriend? makes me hate my life! haha. bitch.

x

i hate birthdays

dear diary,

30 days left to my 2nd 25th. i am freaking the fuck out, as usual. freak. out. freak. out. freak. out.


i hate birthdays! always have, always will xx

sew lucky

dear diary,

i'm feeling lucky! i woke up early this morning (only cause i couldnt go back to sleep, really) and left my friend's place early after a night recording a new song... and found a book! on the streets, staring at me and i stared back wondering why it was there on the ground BRAND NEW and all... it was the readers fuckin digest step by step guide to sewing and it's brilliant! it's the book ive been looking for. i'm so happy. feels like a good day ahead too :)

xx

stalking brick lane

dear diary,

i went to brick lane today (again, that's 2 days in a row) n checked out the sunday upmarket and backyard market... n found these korean girls drawing stuff on caps and pumps.. superbly cute!







more km-toilet designs here.


another one of my fave is big fluff, i even got to meet the designer himself, azhar.




yeah! and n if u know me well enough ud know that i seriously do cut/dye my own hair cause i dont see the point of paying 50 bucks for something i enjoy doing myself (re: self-destruction) xx

i heart paul

dear diary,

if anyone is thinking of getting me something for my birthday (which is the 18th next month, hinthint) i want a PB bag!! I saw this pink/blue paul's boutique piece at topshop oxford circus and it pained me to not be able to bring her home with me :(







oh these r the moments i wish i had a rich boyfriend xx

plastic diet

dear diary,

i think these photos of Lisa Scheer are amazing.











... taken by Monique Rijken for Catsuit Magazine. xx

fall apart

dear diary,

i couldve fallen in love but i chose to fall apart.

xx

londonedge

dear diary,

londonedge went well - our first fashion trade show ever and a lil debut (as we'd like to call it) of osixnine in london. i love the fashion around me in this city, its especially vibrant, fresh and innovative. you dont have to be afraid to express yourself with fashion because your style (no matter how extravagant it is) is being appreciated by everybody on the streets, in the tubes and at parties. i can find inspiration just about everywhere, its so full of life and excitement. i now find that i miss the city if a day goes by where i dont travel pass zone 1. anyway, a couple of brands that stood out at londonedge were Iron Fist and Criminal Damage... really cool designs i wouldnt mind putting on myself. and feel sexy in it.

xx

nonsense

dear diary,

at least i know she has zero fashion sense. beats my lack of common sense any time. hah!

xx

still shameless

dear diary,

as of today, it's been exactly 3 years since i released my baby debut album Shameless. wow. cant believe it has been 3 years, but then again so much has changed. SO much. in such a short time. i've def outgrown the pink afro, and stripey socks to begin with. and the whole look that looks like a rainbow puked on me. or have i? haha. which means its only been that long that i've decided to do electropop - couldnt have made a better decision! electro music is zo awezome... i heart my electro yumness. i blame it on ruben. and in 3 years i've gone from being so-in-love-i'm-getting-married in love to im-so-single-i-need-a-vacation-from-being-single single woman. DAMN STRAIGHT, I SAID WOMAN. hah. which should explain the change of lyrics. lol. but i love it and enjoying it all cause i wouldnt have come up w such favulous lyrics without them favulous experiences of being a hopeful/obsessed/dumped/flinged/bitchslapped/heartbroken/stalked/stalking biatch. i admire myself for still believing in this crappy L word at all. my mind tells me its complete BS and i hear it say 'I TOLD YOU SO' every fucking time. i guess every girl has a 'charlotte' in them, as much as we all want to be 'carrie'. so come on boys, bring on the heartbreaks. cant get enough of it.

xx

everybody's fling

dear diary,

i sometimes think of ze as my alter ego. perhaps it is. like, a stronger 'cant be arsed' version of me. i wish i had a lot more of that. because truth is, beneath all that ego all i really want are the simplest things life can offer. most of which i dont or maybe cant have because of the lifestyle ive chosen to live. i wonder if its been worth it. im aching n nobody needs to know. anyway, today is happy orange day(!) and osixnine is celebrating with a weekend sale at our boutique. shopping is the cure. plus, the next 3 days are big days for OSIXNINE - we're debuting our label with the 'Retro Gunshots' collection at the Londonedge fashion trade show. all fingers n toes crossed. its going to be hell for me to bring the crazy heavy luggage across London tomorrow but i will pull through!

i am nothing more than everybody's fling xx

kinder bueno

dear diary,

i'm eating chocolate. something must be wrong when i'm eating chocolate. especially when its kinder bueno specifically.

xx

to panadol or not

dear diary,

i am not feeling well. not to sure if i should prescribe myself panadol just yet, urhk. and where the hell is everybody? i've been home alone the past 2 weeks, i'm starting to feel like a ghost. cough, sniff, snap.

xx

choose your weapon

dear diary,

just posted a new bunch of photos i worked on w my new party friends, paul and louis, n the shots are GORGEOUS! the one on the right is my personal favourite, looks as though i'm well determined with what i want, although that is rarely the case i think. anyway, it's on my facebook (link is on the right hand side of this blog, add me and say hi). already i'm missing the kittens, they're naughty and they're adorable. hectic week coming ahead with the londonedge fashion tradeshow this weekend... never ever exhibited at a freaking trade show so it's quite nervewrecking. not too sure where to begin! so it's a good thing i just had a nice sexy weekend before the madness sets in :)

xx

les artists

dear diary,

this is my current theme song, L.E.S. Artists by Santogold. Cant say i like the video just as much, it's cool and artistic but not entirely feeling it. But the song, is f'in ACE! Miss Santi, you did it again.




What I'm searching for
to tell it straight, I'm trying to build a wall
Walking by myself
down avenues that reek of time to kill
If you see me keep going
be a pass by waver
Build me up, bring me down
just leave me out you name dropper
Stop trying to catch my eye
I see you good you forced faker
Just make it easy
You're my enemy you fast talker

I can say I hope it will be worth what I give up
If I could stand up mean for the things that I believe

What am I here for
I left my home to disappear is all
I'm here for myself
Not to know you
I don't need no one else
Fit in so good the hope is that you cannot see me later
You don't know me
I am an introvert an excavator
I'm duckin' out for now
a face in dodgy elevators
Creep up and suddenly
I found myself
an innovator

Change, change, change,
I want to get up out of my skin
tell you what
if I can shake it
I'm 'a make this
something worth dreaming of

freedom writer

dear diary,

i spent all day today writing and thinking about what i should do to actually take it up seriously. i've written down the things i'd love to write about, and looks like shitloads. including a book. thats for sure, not within the next 2 hours, but maybe in the next 5 years. i see myself getting married and popped at least a baby out before i actually sit down and write a f'in book. yknow, 9 months of waiting could get a lil boring. plus, i cant really go out partying and singing w my belly stickin out. ok, back to reality. well yeah, i always have this need to narrate & create - the same way music has given me the freedom to. hmm. oh, and i've a new little tagline - S.UPER A.CE E.LECTRO R.EBEL which you'll start seeing on my myspace :) ...photo shoot tomorrow... i need my beauty sleep or the dark circles round my eyes r gonna say hello. thank god for photoshop.

write, ride and re write. xx

live at synthetic

dear diary,

just back from singing at electro night SYNTHETIC @ Cavendish Arms, Stockwell. It was good fun! I've uploaded pics on my facebook. Also met 2 photographers i might be working with this coming week... woot! cant wait :)

xx

where i left my heart

dear diary,

i think its become easier for me to get over someone because the most painful thing i've ever had to get over was, and still is, byron. it's been almost 4 years and i'm still not over it. they say it's easier to leave than to be left... well certainly not in this case. i was numb when i left. and i remember it all just like it was yesterday. it's scary to think if i'll never be as free and happy as i was then.

xx